hmmmx. wad iishh life? why must we live in it? why ishh life so unfair? why ishh it so different from fairytales? why does problems always occur? why must ppl have attitude?why ishh everythin happenin to miie at the same time? why ishh it tat i lyk youu but youu lyk another fren?why ishzit tat im always the middleperson while solvin youu two problems? why youu dun go n tink how i wil feel? why ish it this way?!? WHY WHY WHY? hmmx. esp when youu dun even knw anythin. youu dun0 hu am i writin tis too. youu dunno what happen to miie. youu dunn0 how i felt. youu dun0 tat im not feelin happy.helpin youu solve yr problems ishh not a burden but solvin those problems for youu. youu wont feel anythin. youu wont even sayy thanks at all. im just tryin to tel youu. anythin youu do i will be by yr side. i will support youu.but youu just wont feel it. or even dun wanna believe wadd i sayy. 'she' said tat i shud take care n enter yr world. but yr world ishh full of darkness. and i cant find the door. the last time i enter. i came out with heart breakin wrench. i really dun wanna feel heart broken again. its lykk. it hurts alot, ALOT. i really dun wanna feel tat wayy. ive been tryin to enter it. with the fear in my heart. im willin to suffer if youure really happy tat way. i wont just leave youu in the lurchh. i tried to let go of youu. but i really cant bear to. i dunn0 wad to do. haiis. ermms. im lyk. tryin to show my concern n gain trust. but obviously i cant do tat. youu dun lyk even trust anybody now. youu used to onli trust 'she' then at least i would knw wad ishh goin on frm 'she'. but now. youu n 'she' is on bad terms. there nobody i can find out frm anymore.so now ive got to solve the prob between the both of youu.do youu knw its really hard on miie?bein the middleperson isnt great or easy youu knw? y ishhzit always lyk this. really dun understand. can anybody ever ans miie? puttin on fake smiles n laughter ishh even worse for miie. its really hardd to hide it in my heart.tryin to forget all th e pain n continue with my retarded life ishh hardd. hidin everythin away from youu n i need to use my crappyness to mak youu laugh? its really difficult.keepin the truth away from youu too. dying in silence without ppl noticin...