sometimes i feel that i cant simply push all the blame about me turning into a player to you. cause probably its just me, not you. sometimes i feel that maybe i should defeat my heart before defeating my brain cause i believed i should not hold on that slightest hope on you at all

but how can i do all these ):

Guess what ive got from fb,

You've carried the guilt, the shame for long enough. You've kept your wounds open for long enough. The time has to come to let go, to heal. Keep the lessons and let the pain heal. Yes, you know what we are talking about it.

maybe its time.