today. woke up at 9 plus.
cause actually got go out with queenie de.
but in the end cancelled.
dun0 y oso lahs.
den siian diao.
eleven plus.
shao cal miie.
ask miie go j8 n do geo project.
den i okay l0rs.
den 2 plus go find them.
den drink milkshake.
den they sayy wann go lib.
den i sayy ok.go tpy de.
den sit mrt.
wangkee started tokin bout the dead uncle.
wearin green shirt de.
wangkee so diao.
p6 tat time dun0 how to go hm frm j8.
LOL
LOL
LOL
den do until 5 plus.
den i cal my aunt.
den i meet her at compasspoint.
den eat den walk walk.
den go hm.
siian diao.
today damn siian.





hmmx. youu said youu wont care
but y ish tis happenin?
i doin al this.
everythin.
but y all of youu dun approve it?
y cant youu all understand miie?
understand y am i doin this?
cant youu see im in a badd position to do anythin too?
haiis.
i dunn0 le.
forget it.
nvm.
hu truely understands miie?
NOBODY?
haiis.
im on the verge of givin out man.
wadevr.


in great depression.

haiis.
everybody hasnt totally got over yesterday's match.
but life still has to go on.
we will win the next matchh!
we wil get into top four of zone.
we MUST oso!
hahas.
hmmX.
yesterdayy was lykk to no mood to studyy.
staredd at the book n flip for awhile den go slp le.
sucks man.
moodless. defeat.taste ishh horrible!
ermms.
so haddd science test todayy.
clinton askk ms low if the test wil b hard.
den ms low answered.
the paper ishh soft.
diaos rits? so coldd.
hahas
hmmx.
science was pretty easy.
but i stil didnt manage to correctly ans all the question.
i really dun wanna get bakk my maths paper.
im so gonna flunk it.
ermms.
after skool.
miie.mel.bel went to j8!
ate sushi n octopus balls.
damn nice.
n mel treated us to sugarcane drink.
so nice of her!x)
went up to fourth level n find lynette.
saw debra n angie too.
was tokin to lynette when bel go change.
i nearly lost my temper.
so irritatedd.
ermms.
den we went to the busstop
wait for 54.
just b4 it came.
shaotong cal miie n ask us to wait forr her n
DO NOT BOARD THE BUS.
den the bloody bus came.
rotten luckk!
she came with marcus.
den we '0o0o0o0o' them.
den soft of wann to malu them.
but it didnt.
shao sayy marcus ishh bel's.
den we laugh.
ermms.
reached the bbal court.
was lookin for boon hao n haziq.
they were siitin down there.
blinded miie.
hahas.
hmmx.
so we started playin lors.
at the v first 5 mins.
i tripped haziq.
he fell.
n his leg got alot blood.
scarin miie.
felt kinda guilty somehow.
ermms.
den 4 plus.
mel n haziq n lynette went hm.
left the 6 of us.
calvin came.
ermms.
den we played 3 on 3.
full court!
damn fun!
i love it man!
n i just realised I CAN DRIBBLE!
n i tink i was damn hiong todayy.
v chiong.
hahas
wasnt tired at all!
so after tat.
6 plus we go hm l0rs.
shao.miie.bel. go central n buy bubble tea.
quite nice.
den tokk.
den walk to sit 86.
den lidat l0rs.
reached hm safely.
didnt kana bang or somethin!
OH YA!
while we playin bbal tat time.
boon hao use my specs n scratch my facce!
BOON HAO YOUU DISFIGURed miie!
hahas. hmmx. ermms.



y0uu saiid youu wont care.
but y are youu askin y now?
see. i saiid.
youure weird.
til i cant even go
n understand wadd youu are thinkin.
fearin of everythin.
im so damn tired of it.
i cant hold it any longer lahs.
its not a burden.
but its gonna be.
im just tryin to do my part.
tryin my best.
if youure not satisfied.
forget it.
i cant do anythin anymore.
on the verge of breakin down.

haiis. really hadd disappointed many ppl todayy.
im truely. sorry.
hadd match against sjc todayy.
all of us did stupid mistakes over n over again.
ive even throw away 4 passes.
its lykk im really ridiculous.
how could i have done tat??
im suchh a burden to the team.
if the 4 passes hadd been pass successfully to mel.
n if she pass it to the shooters properly.
we would hve shot in extra 4 goals.
which we'll will win overall!
but.it didnt. its lykk.
haiis. things didnt turn out to b nice.
dreams were shattered in front of us.
when the last whistle blew.
its over.
the score was 16-19.
just three more goals n we would lykk draw the game or
we could even have won.
we've disappoint alot of ppl.
those that tinks well of us.
mrs ong.ms chow.
even mr ong. ms lee. the sec ones. weizhen .cheryl tong.
came down to support us.
they did to their fullest.
but we just didnt play to our fullest.
we've really threw their faces again tis time.
they are really disappointed tis time.
i really dunn0 how to face them le.
haiis.
but its all over.
said sorry to cyn n jas.
really did them wrong.
for my case.
haiis.
ermms.
next tues we wil definitely win le
no more
NO MORE
LOSING..
NO MORE TEARS.
WE'LL GONA WIN!

heylw0os! hmmx. haiis.
todayy hadd match between AMKSS vs ANDERSON.
was a so calledd 'tough matchh'
ermms. so. i wasnt in main seven anymore. nvm.
but den wangkee durin first quater kana blow for contacts plus obstruction.
but it was lykk not really so many. just tat the umpire damn bias.
so she was lyk. v bushuang. den damn lykk blame hersel.team plus umpire.
so mrs ong took her out n put miie in l0rs for second quarter.
w0ots! got my dream n fav position in my hands! damn happy. but at the same time. kinda. scaredd. hasnt been playin tat position for a long LONG LONGG time.
den play the last three quarters l0rs. i fell dwn twice by MYSEL which ishh so siasuay.
dun0 y cannot balance todayy.hmmx. den lidat match end le.
asll of us hadd badd scoldins from mrs ongg.
the score was lykk ermms. 23-13.
although we won but not really happy bout it bahhs.
cause really somehow play v badly again todayy.
we MUST MUST WIN SJC. N WE WIL WIL DO IT!
C DIV! JIAYOUU! SURE CAN DO IT DE.
heard from lik0 n renee volleyball boys both c n b divison lost in their semis today.
sobbs.


okk. change topic.
now. tok bout banana lik0!
she's evil
she's long
she's thin
she's retarded
she's rotten
she's crazy
okok.
she's cute?? eeee
most impt..
SHE'S BANANA!
done! are youu happy alr? i wrote bout youu. hahas.


change subb again..
hmmx. dun0 wad to sayy bout youu. can really get disappointed with you.
n certainly i wil get damn happy with you.
n youu are certainly more indecisive den miie.
one moment you can lykk v good with her.
the other. youu hate her to the core. weirdd.
one moment youu can dun care her.
the other youu damn worry bout herr.
isnt weirdd?
dun0 to continue stugglin or lettin go.
its hard to choose.
i cant bear to let go.
but i cant hold any longer.


RICHARD MARX - Right Here Waiting

Oceans apart day after day
And I slowly go insane
I hear your voice on the line
But it doesn't stop the pain
If I see you next to never
How can we say forever
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I took for granted, all the times
That I though would last somehow
I hear the laughter, I taste the tears
But I can't get near you now
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' CrAzY
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takesOr how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you
I wonder how we can survive
This romance
But in the end if I'm with you
I'll take the chance
Oh, can't you see it baby
You've got me goin' cRaZy
Wherever you go
Whatever you do
I will be right here waiting for you
Whatever it takes
Or how my heart breaks
I will be right here waiting for you

hmmmx. wad iishh life? why must we live in it? why ishh life so unfair? why ishh it so different from fairytales? why does problems always occur? why must ppl have attitude?why ishh everythin happenin to miie at the same time? why ishh it tat i lyk youu but youu lyk another fren?why ishzit tat im always the middleperson while solvin youu two problems? why youu dun go n tink how i wil feel? why ish it this way?!? WHY WHY WHY? hmmx. esp when youu dun even knw anythin. youu dun0 hu am i writin tis too. youu dunno what happen to miie. youu dunn0 how i felt. youu dun0 tat im not feelin happy.helpin youu solve yr problems ishh not a burden but solvin those problems for youu. youu wont feel anythin. youu wont even sayy thanks at all. im just tryin to tel youu. anythin youu do i will be by yr side. i will support youu.but youu just wont feel it. or even dun wanna believe wadd i sayy. 'she' said tat i shud take care n enter yr world. but yr world ishh full of darkness. and i cant find the door. the last time i enter. i came out with heart breakin wrench. i really dun wanna feel heart broken again. its lykk. it hurts alot, ALOT. i really dun wanna feel tat wayy. ive been tryin to enter it. with the fear in my heart. im willin to suffer if youure really happy tat way. i wont just leave youu in the lurchh. i tried to let go of youu. but i really cant bear to. i dunn0 wad to do. haiis. ermms. im lyk. tryin to show my concern n gain trust. but obviously i cant do tat. youu dun lyk even trust anybody now. youu used to onli trust 'she' then at least i would knw wad ishh goin on frm 'she'. but now. youu n 'she' is on bad terms. there nobody i can find out frm anymore.so now ive got to solve the prob between the both of youu.do youu knw its really hard on miie?bein the middleperson isnt great or easy youu knw? y ishhzit always lyk this. really dun understand. can anybody ever ans miie? puttin on fake smiles n laughter ishh even worse for miie. its really hardd to hide it in my heart.tryin to forget all th e pain n continue with my retarded life ishh hardd. hidin everythin away from youu n i need to use my crappyness to mak youu laugh? its really difficult.keepin the truth away from youu too. dying in silence without ppl noticin...

haiis. hmmX. IM not supposed to love Y0UU.IM not suppose to live my life wishin youu were ther.IM not suppose to wonder wher youu are or wad youu do.IM sorry.I cant help myself.cause IM in love with youu.I'd do anythin i'll give youu my world i'll wait forever just f0rr youu.just call my name. and i'll be there.just to show i care.

just cause of herr youu wann give up our frenship.do youu tink it ish worth it??i gave her a chance le. but she blew it off with her the other hand.its not my fault.please dun blame miie.tis ishh so damn unfair towards miie. y ishh life so damn bloody UNFAIR?!??? I JUST CANT TAK IT TIS TIME. ITS ALWAYS LIDAT. IM ALWAYS THE ONE HU GIVES IN.MAYB IVE HAVE MAK A WRONG CHOICE TO GIVE IN FROM THE START.HAIIS.CANT YOUU TRY TO B MORE UNDERSTANDIN TOWARDS MIIE SOME TIMES?!?IM STRUGGLING ON THE EDGE OF BREAKIN DWN. WIL YOUU EVER UNDERSTAND? THINGS ARE NOT SO SIMPLE. WIL YOUU LOOK INTO IT MORE? OR MORE DEEPEN? HAIIS.